wow....some of the things I've said in my blogs

I'm a terrible blogger. I have mistakes throughout my posts. I'm inconsistent. Its awful really.  Then I read some of the things I've said and I wonder how could I have forgotten this. I think wow...this is amazing. I'm a genius.
Not really, but I love my posts. They minister to my heart and they remind me of who I am in Christ and who I can be..if that makes sense. God is awesome in mercy towards us and his patience. I just wanted to pull out somethings in my blog that have helped me today.
1.we can’t stay immature unstable Christians and affect the world in a positive manner..We can’t live like the world and draw them to Christ..they have to see something different in our lives..about the way we do life..its a sad fact, we are mimicking the world instead of them mimicking us..
2.  If living without God means that we live without hope..then shouldn’t we Christians have hope…shouldn’t I have hope..not fantasizing about a new life..but hope..not wishful thinking but hope and faith in a God who loves me..and who has all power to work all things out for my good..
3. Sometimes when you have messed  up, there is a tendency to live your life in regret. I regret a lot of things I've done. I hurt over my past actions. I can look back and say I was really selfish and really foolish. There is no nice way to paint a pretty picture of all the things I've done. I want to though. I don't want it to be as bad as it was(seems). I don't want my past to be as ugly as it was. I don't want to face it right in the eyes and say I forgive myself. If I make it prettier than what it was I make light of the sin I committed. I also make light of the grace and mercy of God to bring me out of that sin.
4. .  I hate being confronted with the truth of who I was and what I struggle with. I want my life to be pretty, not ugly. I want my sins to be "small" not great.
5.  When its just me and God either I can make light of the grace he extended towards me by saying that my sin wasn't that bad. or--I can admit that I needed his forgiveness. I needed his death on the cross. That surely w/o it I deserve hell!


I hope these passages helps you as much as it helped me today.  Most of the time I live like I don't know Jesus. I live my life for myself to please myself. Its not working. People who really understand that to gain your life you must lose it, understand this. My life does not belong to me, it belongs to Jesus. Let his will be done.