Aww Man-being confronted by God

Today I was listening to a podcast and taking notes when God starting speaking to me. It was not pretty. I did not like what God said, but in it is my healing. I'm just going to copy my notes so that you can get what I got.
1. Simply Jesus is Lord forever and always-that is his position he has rule and authority over all and that includes my life
2. You want change in circumstances but you want to continue to do the same things
3. Why are we (God &I) doing this-to help ME get where I need to be.
4. Who benefits from the Bible/cross-How does God benefit from all of this
5. God always had a prophet to lead his people the right way-he never left them w/p
6. I'm going to explain this before I write it-I was thinking that through this time with God I was feeding my spirit not my flesh-then I began to think that we always have to make those decisions moment by moment-to walk in spirit not flesh-always be on guard the following was God's response
 When in a war surrounded by bullets and bombs-do you relax your guard-God tells us all of the time to take up your full amour-that the Spirit wars against the flesh-We do have to make decisions to walk in spirit or flesh in every moment of our lives

Then God took me to 2 kings 5(Naaman)
For  those of you who don't know the story you should read it....
God told him go and do this---and he got angry because his miracle did not come the way he wanted it to-he wanted to be healed, but his way..God said thats me I want healing but my way..he made the following points

1. You have a problem--God says pray and ask him--
2. You have money-God says tithe and he would rebuke the devour and open up a window of blessings so that you can't contain it
3. you want to lose weight-God says stop eating out and get up @5:30 and exercise
4. You want to grow in the word-God says study, read, pray, spend time with him, and spend time with his people

In these four things are your healing, but do you do them--No..you are missing your blessing because you don't want to do your part...

you see what I mean, this is why its hard for me to spend time with God. He always want to confront me about my issues. Truly, I hope this helps you. God may not come like you want him to, but he will come.

wow....some of the things I've said in my blogs

I'm a terrible blogger. I have mistakes throughout my posts. I'm inconsistent. Its awful really.  Then I read some of the things I've said and I wonder how could I have forgotten this. I think wow...this is amazing. I'm a genius.
Not really, but I love my posts. They minister to my heart and they remind me of who I am in Christ and who I can be..if that makes sense. God is awesome in mercy towards us and his patience. I just wanted to pull out somethings in my blog that have helped me today.
1.we can’t stay immature unstable Christians and affect the world in a positive manner..We can’t live like the world and draw them to Christ..they have to see something different in our lives..about the way we do life..its a sad fact, we are mimicking the world instead of them mimicking us..
2.  If living without God means that we live without hope..then shouldn’t we Christians have hope…shouldn’t I have hope..not fantasizing about a new life..but hope..not wishful thinking but hope and faith in a God who loves me..and who has all power to work all things out for my good..
3. Sometimes when you have messed  up, there is a tendency to live your life in regret. I regret a lot of things I've done. I hurt over my past actions. I can look back and say I was really selfish and really foolish. There is no nice way to paint a pretty picture of all the things I've done. I want to though. I don't want it to be as bad as it was(seems). I don't want my past to be as ugly as it was. I don't want to face it right in the eyes and say I forgive myself. If I make it prettier than what it was I make light of the sin I committed. I also make light of the grace and mercy of God to bring me out of that sin.
4. .  I hate being confronted with the truth of who I was and what I struggle with. I want my life to be pretty, not ugly. I want my sins to be "small" not great.
5.  When its just me and God either I can make light of the grace he extended towards me by saying that my sin wasn't that bad. or--I can admit that I needed his forgiveness. I needed his death on the cross. That surely w/o it I deserve hell!


I hope these passages helps you as much as it helped me today.  Most of the time I live like I don't know Jesus. I live my life for myself to please myself. Its not working. People who really understand that to gain your life you must lose it, understand this. My life does not belong to me, it belongs to Jesus. Let his will be done.