Tuesday, May 24, 2011

ephesians 1/2

Hello, you know life as a sinner is hard. Its hard to disobey God. It hurts and if it doesn't hurt, then something is wrong. I want you to know that we need to get it together as people of God. I keep asking myself..what if Jesus had came back..what if he came back now..would I be satisfied with the way I lived..would he? These are my thoughts on Ephesians chapter 1 and 2..

1. When a parent adopts a child, the child then becomes his and he becomes responsible for that child.
2. God has adopted me, and he adopted me knowing my background. He said I can help her. I have a plan for her life. I can make her useful. So God, my Father, sees me as who he can make me be, not who I've been. He sees my potential and he's willing to help me get there. I want you for a moment to imagine looking at your child and seeing what she can be, and knowing she is not living up to potential  and standards you have placed in her. That is the life of a child of God who continues to walk in the way of the world. Know who you can be in Christ. Know your potential. If you have failed then go to your Father, repent and ask him for help.
3. He can work in my life and in my world to work out those things which concerns me; he's working behind the scenes to get his will accomplished for my life. You can fully trust your Father, stop playing games, get serious about your new life and your relationship with your new family. Get real with him, so he can get real with you. Allow him to work in your life. God cannot work with someone who refuses to let him. He works through our faith and trust in him to be who he is and love us.
4. The life/way I used to live I don't have to live because of him I don’t have to stay the same, nor does he wants me too. I can live without fear. Its going to take work, and its not going to be easy, but whatever the sacrifice, just know in the end its worth it.  So he can teach me his ways, his statues, his requirements, and because I have the Holy Spirit in me, I can do them. This you have to believe in order to have this promise you have to believe. One more time-in order to have this promise you have to believe that you can.
5. Because I’m God child's I can trust him to act on my behalf and to also do what’s best for me, even when I don't like it..But I have all of his power behind me and he loves to bless his children. You need to understand that when God says pray without ceasing, he is really saying talk to him about everything. Get this right first. These are basics of Christianity. None of those other things really matter without this, you can trust God to reveal those in time, But you want to get the foundational matters of your relationship with Christ right first. Ex-How can you tithe 10% of your income to a God you don’t trust. That’s why we have so many Christians not tithing because they have dealt with the foundational matters of Christian living. We think its about church attendance and participation as a measure of performance, but its really about my relationship with my Father Monday thru Sunday..through every situation in my life.
6. He raised us out of sin; I no longer have to live the way I used to live. I can live like a child of God. I can deal with all of the things inside me that lines up with who I used to be, with the help of my father. He will work with me through my healing. He will help me be better and stronger. He will give me understanding. I need to understand that he loves me. I no longer have to live in fear. You have to live like its just you and God with the understanding its not just you and God. That he has other children who need you to help them as the “older/ more mature” child..we have to grow up..we can’t stay babies..we can’t stay immature unstable Christians and affect the world in a positive manner..We can’t live like the world and draw them to Christ..they have to see something different in our lives..about the way we do life..its a sad fact, we are mimicking the world instead of them mimicking us..
7. Why do I still live that way (Eph 2 1-3)? Because you have not repented of your old ways. You still believe that they will get you somewhere. Renounce your old way of living. Desire the ways of your Father.  You can’t hold on to your old way of living and grab hold of your new life. If you don’t change, your life won’t change. You will repeat the same cycle of life over and over. You will never become who you are in Christ. You have to live this life like you know God…You have to know God to live this life like you know him! Get closer to your Father..be his favorite child…believe that you are the apple of his eye..that he loves you the most..be secure in your position as his child…so that you can tell others about your family…so that you can be proud of your family
8. Ephesians 2-6)-you have some authority as a child of God. You have rights and privileges that the world doesn’t have. You have weapons that the world doesn’t have. Yet you walk in defeat like you are part of the world and not part of Christ. You from this moment can walk like you been a princess all of your life…You can walk like you know you are the daughter of a king..like you know who Jesus is and that he has given you his name to drop..that at the name of Jesus..every knee shall bow..and every tongue confess…trust your relationship with the Lord..trust that he is your savior and that in him you have been forgiven and that God no longer counts your sins against you.
9. If living without God means that we live without hope..then shouldn’t we Christians have hope…shouldn’t I have hope..not fantasizing about a new life..but hope..not wishful thinking but hope and faith in a God who loves me..and who has all power to work all things out for my good..
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Saturday, May 7, 2011

Be thankful

Sometimes when you have messed  up, there is a tendency to live your life in regret. I regret a lot of things I've done. I hurt over my past actions. I can look back and say I was really selfish and really foolish. There is no nice way to paint a pretty picture of all the things I've done. I want to though. I don't want it to be as bad as it was(seems). I don't want my past to be as ugly as it was. I don't want to face it right in the eyes and say I forgive myself. If I make it prettier than what it was I make light of the sin I committed. I also make light of the grace and mercy of God to bring me out of that sin. It seems as if I'm in a conundrum. I can dress up my past mistakes. I can use the hurt I suffered as a reason. I can lie. I can hide it. I can live in denial of my past, never really letting anyone close. This is my preferred method. I need you to understand. I really don't mind knowing how ugly my past was. I can understand it and acknowledge the fact that it was God's grace that saved me from myself as long as its only to myself and to God. I don't want to pour my past out and lay it on the alter for God to use and I know he will. I know he could use my past to help people. He could use my past to soften my heart towards the needs of others. There is a lot of things God could do with my past and I want him to sort of. I just don't want people to know that I was liar. I lied of no reason and still do for that matter. I don't want people to know that I stole from my own family. I don't won't people to now about my sexual past.  I hate being confronted with the truth of who I was and what I struggle with. I want my life to be pretty, not ugly. I want my sins to be "small" not great.
I want you read Luke 7(36-50). This woman should be me, but its not. Im more like Simon. I can overlook my past as just a "mistake". I can excuse and say that I wasn't thinking right. I can say it was satan attacking me. I could come up with a zillion + 2 excuses. But at the end of my life when its just me and my God, those won't matter. Everything I tried to protect myself from-won't matter. When its just me and God either I can make light of the grace he extended towards me by saying that my sin wasn't that bad. or--I can admit that I needed his forgiveness. I needed his death on the cross. That surely w/o it I deserve @#!*% . I can admit that I need Jesus to help me defeat the sin in my life. I can tell him that I am powerless and I can't do it w/o him. I can admit that my past is ugly and that  I don't know how to live this life he has gifted me with. I can allow him to come and clean my heart and my life up his way not mine.
Be prayerful that I won't allow pride, insecurity, fear of rejection, or fear of what people may say stop me from doing what God has called me to do. He has called me to go out and help hurting people. In order for me to do that  I must trust him with my hurts. This is urgent because if I don't when I try to help people it will be through my strength; not through God's strength. It be because Im saying the right thing at the right time. Because I sense your need and I know I can help you. Those are all wrong. I am meant to help people because God has so helped me that I don't know what else to do but allow him to help other through me. To end, I want you to understand that in my head I can understand this. I can understand my need to fully accept God's forgiveness on my life. Actually living that out is the problem I face...

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

God, what is I have that your people need

Ok...I think I found the solution to fixing all my problems. Yes! Yes! Yes! I am so happy! I would like to thank my mama for sticking beside me during trouble times. I would like to thank my children for teaching me how to love unselfishly. Everything I'm doing, I am doing for you. I would also like to think my family for giving me the strength to come out of my mess. Finally, Jesus I would like to thank you for giving me you're life. I would like to thank you for being stable and compassionate. I can rely on you to take care of me. I don't have to worry about my problems because of you. You know just how to work things out in my favor on my behalf. Help me to be obedient to you. Help me to begin to do the things now to get me where I want to be later. Father, this is not about getting my life together is it? The world is full of darkness and you want me to be a light. I think you act on behalf of the people who you know are about your business. Well, Lord I hadn't been, but I want to start doing that today. Lord, my prayer is what do I have that people need. How can I help you restore broken people. What is you want me to do?
To my readers, I want you to understand that last night I prayed for God to help my prayers stop being all about me and what I want. I want to know how can I pray for someone else. How can I meet the needs of someone else. I'm learning that my life is not about me, but its totally about you!

Monday, May 2, 2011

Give me faith

"I need you to pierce through the dark and cleanse every part of me." "I broken inside, I give you my life" "my flesh may fail, my God you never will"! These are all lines in elevation worship's song "Give me faith". Lord help me to trust you. When it seems darkest help me to trust. When everything is well help me to trust. Give me the faith to live this life victorious. In failures, in success, in disappointments, in blessing help me to trust you. You are worthy. You are a God who loves me and even though I don't deserve it you love me. Its worth repeating that you love me. This life I live let it be for you. I've lived long enough satisfying the desires of my flesh. Jesus, you gave your life for me; now help me to surrender my life to you. Help me trust you to be who you are. When all seem dark, help me believe in you. Lord, never let go. Don't let me turn back. From this day on don't let me be the same. Change me Lord. Help me, I can't do it alone. I don't know what to do from this moment on, but I know that you're with me. Where I have confusion, you bring calmness. In all my weaknesses I can find your strength. I don't have to live this life alone. Lord from this moment in history till eternity, let this be the moment I found Christ. My Lord and my savior. The risen from the dead. Whose blood is able to cleanse completely without fail. I've longed believed in your death and in resurrection. I believed that you were real and that in you I had forgiveness, but I didn't trust you to walk with me. I didn't trust  in the fact that you were a God who cared. Jesus, words can't express how I feel. Let it be real Jesus. Give me the ability and the faith to love you first, to love myself, and then  love others. Help not to walk like I used to walk. I wanna be different. If my view of you has truly changed, then let affect the way I live. Time is short God. I don't want to waste it anymore. In words of elevation church this is my prayer:
I need you to soften my heart 
To break me apart 
I need you to open my eyes 
To see that You're shaping my life  
All I am, 
I surrender Give me faith to trust what you say 
That you're good and your love is great 
I'm broken inside, I give you my life  
I need you to soften my heart 
To break me apart 

I need you pierce through the dark
And cleanse every part of me 

I may be weak
Your spirit strong in me
My flesh may fail
My God you never will